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Their Confinement
04:08
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I can't even let go
Not because I'm scared, but 'cause I'm not allowed to do so
Views prescribed by society
Are just too restrictive, I feel like I can't exist
I saw you from across the room
Didn't think much of it, 'til I saw you staring too
I can't bring myself to talk to you
Under the judgment of the man I'm married to
But the warmth of your gaze sets my heart ablaze
And I need to be saved from this tremendous pain
Do you ever wonder if the chains that we're tied with
Are not as unbreakable as we think?
I can't even talk back
That's because I'm scared and you're the only friend I have
Completely let you rule over me
I suffer the impacts of your toxicity
I know that you're better than this
But the way you treat me is something I can't dismiss
Remember the times I spent with you?
That was all before she took you under her roof
But the harshness of your words all comes to a blur
How am I supposed to tell you how much this hurts?
And sometimes I wonder if the chains you tied me with
Are not as unbreakable as I think
My story's a bit different from the rest
This union is something I brought upon myself
Our love felt like I was in another realm
Though, a part of me knew it felt too perfect
And when I found out that I was just your mistress
That's what pushed me to pack my things, and I left
With my last words being "I don't need you", and yet
I just can't seem to get you out of my head
But the memory of you sets my heart ablaze
And I need to be saved from this tremendous pain
And sometimes I wonder if the chains that I'm tied with
Are not as unbreakable as I think
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A blinding clear light shines above me
Casting from the sparkling chandeliers
An orchestra plays the rhythmic melody
The sound of their prelude flows through my ears
Suddenly, I look up and see
A fascinating lady glancing towards me
The one whom I stare at in lovestruck awe
Wandering through the door to my heart
Feeling so close to this princess that I just saw
Even though we are straying so far apart
The violins, the cello, the accordions, and the piano
Encourage my spouse to join me in a waltz
Couples dance lovingly around the darkening ballroom
But why am I imprisoned between these walls?
If I don't make my move now, then when?
The nearby clocktower sounds the midnight bells
When we communicate with our gaze,
Your swift winking mean more than his words
The mark you left on me will not disappear,
So please, meet me behind the curtains, my dear
Letting go of our personal revelations
The moment we feared was this exact situation
Our current ways bring us no joy anymore
But we know that life has much more in store
Our conversation was not as private as we thought
A quick and forceful tug revealed our hiding spot
"Oh, darling, please calm down, I just want to believe
That not being joined to you would have me relieved"
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Unbreakable Rotten Union
04:31
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I’m so grateful for you reaching out to me
Endless good times keeping eachother company
Those words you spilled have ingrained my body
Can’t let you know life would be enjoyable on our own
(What is the reason you’re doing this to me?)
Aah, I loved you unconditionally and mutually, we
Gave ourselves the attention our families never did
I kept pushing down my own realization
Staying by your side, struck by your affection
(Overthinking everything I say or do)
Keeping this smile on my face, though all I truly feel is pain
I’m willing to keep my facade up if it’s for you
Why do the cruel things you say sound normal to me
« Laugh at the smug comments, don’t take it personally »
To be honest, I didn’t think it would last
All our care for eachother went out so fast
We both know the reason for our alliance:
You were so nice to me just to gain my compliance
(Still, some things deserve to be said)
I’m so grateful for you reaching out to me
Endless moments keeping eachother company
These words you spilled embedded in my body, but
Can’t let you know we’d be better all alone
Didn’t think our friendship would grow out of scale
Now I’m nothing but a puppet in your sick games
Is there an easier way to let you know
I wish I never met you all those years ago?
I was hoping that the end wouldn’t seem this pathetic
This conclusion is a better choice for me and you
If only my feelings for you weren’t hectic,
I could express clearly how my hatred for you grew
Did this ring a bell? Or did she not take it well?
My conscience keeps filling up with these phrases I can’t tell
In a moment of weakness, I say "I’m sorry" once again
Analyzing your face, waiting for my heart to be stained
Piling and piling, the voice tells me that’s my queue
But I’m only courageous enough to say I love you
I shouldn’t have to apologize on your behalf
But you always find a way to turn your mistakes into laughs
(Laughs, laughs, just smile and laugh)
I’m so grateful for you reaching out to me
Endless moments keeping eachother company
These words you spilled embedded in my body, but
Can’t let you know we’d be better all alone
Didn’t think our friendship would grow out of scale
Now I’m nothing but a puppet in your sick games
Is there an easier way to let you know
I wish I never met you all those years ago?
You don’t deserve my positivity
I’ll let you know life would be enjoyable on our own
Sorry for every breath I take
I want to break free from your chains
Don't lie to me, I'm just plan B
Now you run to her aimlessly
"Please don't leave me, I love you so desperately"
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It's changed a lot since then,
I can't say I'm surprised,
My hometown that used to be one of a kind,
And memories of you start to come back to mind
When I first saw you at the festival
With a box of dango in hand,
You just left a young lady dressed in blue
Who you said was only your friend
Spent the whole day in the summer rain, then we sat down at a café
That's long gone, but I hoped it would be opened to this day
We watched the fireworks at night, and kissed under the city lights
But who knows what went on with her while I was out of sight?
Just because you thought we had chemistry
You brought me into your infidelity
Cheating on someone who loved you with a girl you just met
Should be your biggest regret
Since the day I left the country, I've been missing you
Even after all you put me through,
I thought I made the wrong choice somehow
But I realize now
That I don't need you, I don't need you (x4)
When I last saw you near the house you owned
With my possessions in my hands
I thought about that girl, years ago,
Who you said was only your friend
Spent the whole day and night arguing, then we sat down near the river
I looked down at the water flowing and watched our love story wither
It was so unfathomable that someone loved me like you did
For nights, I craved the touch of your sweet fingers on my skin
I won't let you ruin taint the memory of my hometown, instead
I'll find a way to get you out of my head
Since the day I left the country, I've been missing you
Even after all you put me through,
But I've made good choices, thus far
I should've realized from the start
That night near the river, you were begging me to stay
I had packed my bags, ready to leave for the States
You said you were so ashamed, that you had made a mistake
You were surprised to hear me say
That I don't need you, I don't need you (x4)
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